I had finally found a job and made enough progress on my divorce that the end was in sight. I was actually disappointed that I got through it without dying because I know I'll just get back into that place somewhere down the line anyway. Now it's looking like I'm going to be fired again, for the second time in 6 months. I saw a stack of resumes of people applying for my job, with recent dates on the cover letters. I have severe ADD and just can't think straight, even with medication. It doesn't help that I overslept twice. You can't really do that at a radio station when they need you to unlock the door and produce the live shows. I hate being chronically suicidal. I wish one of these periods would just finally push me over the edge so it would be done.