tonight.. But I can't. They locked the doors to the place where I was going to do it, so I'll need to find a new place. I can do it here, but it will be agonizing and I want it to be quick. I don't seek rescue. This is simply so you should know if I stop joining the chat. I'll let you know once more when I'm going. It's sort of against my world view to post this, but it's just in case I'm wrong. My belief is atheistic (or really closer to "adeism" if you're into ethymology), and that there is no afterlife. My belief tells me that when it ends, the world and the everything is destroyed. Thus me killing myself is really destroying everything including you, and then a death note won't matter. If it is so that I'm wrong then I want to leave a nice corpse. I wont be able to enjoy it from up above, but it'll be good for the coroner and close family probably. I wont tell you why I'm doing this. I've already told to a few anonymous people. And each time they all get angry and spiteful, and I even managed to get one person claim they got suicidal because of me. It's not a crime or thought of commiting a crime. It boils down to personality. And that's all you get to know. And no I wont seek professional help. I've studied their methods, and none will help. They WILL put me in a locked cell. And being devoid of mental entertainment won't make me any better. That is just more likely to make me angry and dangerous.