I was "let go" from work...

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by lachrymose27, Feb 3, 2011.

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  1. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    It really is my fault... I'm not interested in the work... i'm not motivated enough... i'm depressed and i don't know how to let him know that... people don't want to hire people who have mental health issues because they'd only bring the company down and waste resources. My boss is a nice guy. I just wish I wasn't such a burden, a wastepile. I'm sad now and haven't cried in a long time. I'm crying because i'm a failure... And now I don't know how I can explain to my family about why i was let go.... they can't understand it... they won't ever accept that I have mental problems... At the same time,
    I'm relieved that I was let go... I can find other outlets now, other jobs. My birthday is next week, i will be 26. Does my life end there? I don't know what the future holds for me.. and I can't stop crying right now. Life goes on, and its just another year of job-hunting and quitting it after a month or two... because i can't seem to hold onto a job for too long..

    I'm afraid.. i'm 26 soon and suppose to have responsibilities but i'm not responsible enough. I'm afraid i'll go down the suicidal route again... My family tells me how great it is that i had a job... how can I tell them I was let go because it was my fault? I can't take it, there is no support, just pain... they will just look me down and give unsupportive comments and make fun of me... inferiority complex... i'm not sure what else i can do.
     
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  2. Cute_Angel_Xx

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    Hello,

    I am sorry to hear you were "let go" from work, that can me daunting and it can be a tricky and distressing job to find annother job. Do you get couselling on your mental health issue? Don't blame yourself as you shouldn't, it's not your fault. Do you have a good understandable relationship with your boss? Many people actually do hire people with mental health isssues but as long as they socialise with like 2-3 workers, people who work behind the scenes.

    Please don't cry, deep breath in and out we are head for you please hold in and talk to us :hug: x
     
  3. gakky1

    gakky1 Well-Known Member

    Hi lachrymose27, sorry about hearing that, been reading many of your posts as of late, you've been talking about your job and the negative things going on with it and how you really didn't like it.:no: Like you said you were relieved you were let go but it still hurts, when I was around your age went thru so, so many jobs, just could never stick with anything but by the time I got to be 30 finally grew up a bit and kept my job for a long, long time, though I quit it last year.:sad: Please don't do anything rash, as Cute_Angel_Xx said keep on talking with us, all off us will listen and hopefully help.:grouphug: You talked about going into the 'gaming' field, is that something you still want to do? Perhaps you can use some of this time to better prepare yourself for that. Come back soon and let us know what's going on and don't feel like you're a failure because you're not.
     
  4. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    thanks cute angel and gakky. I appreciate the support.

    I am making an appt with a pschiatrist or psycologist tomorrow. I hope good things can come out of being let go from my job. I'm going to try, but I won't know what tomorrow or next week or month holds for me.

    Gakky, i'm just like you. I quit after only months of work.. why is it that we do this?
     
  5. gakky1

    gakky1 Well-Known Member

    I'm not sure why I/us do things like that lachrymose27, if we knew we wouldn't have done them.:unsure: When I was in my 20's felt always down and worthless, back then the only way I knew to fix that was to drink...heavily, major reason I went thru so many jobs, though I usually was a good worker at them. Not gonna say I suddenly grew up, but I just got so sick of starting over and hit hit such a rock bottom that it kept me motivated long enough to stay at my last job for 14 years. Wasn't really the job that made me quit, my problems just grew so much, even with therapy and meds, just couldn't take being around others and resigned, know you've mentioned some issues about being around others also. Looks like you're taking some wise steps, congrats for that, hope that and coming here can get you thru this. Won't say any cliche' because I hate them, sucks losing a job regardless of how it happens,:sad: but you seem to have a good head on your shoulder, keep us up to date and always willing to listen and help out if at all possible.:cool:
     
  6. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    thanks. i want there to be several possibilities :D
     
  7. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Life is a possibility.
    Have had some weird jobs in my life time and a career I loved.
    Went from working in a dog parlour to nursing, to social work (loved that) then back to medicine when I retrained as a cardiac tech (hated that).
    Left and went to uni at the ripe old age of 40 :laugh:
    Work can actually be an experience.
    Best job (apart from social work...which burnt me out) I had a summer job in spain taking people out horse riding...AND I GOT PAID!!! :laugh:
     
  8. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    wow Terry, you've been all over the place. good job holding onto the reins :)

    Gakky, was just re-reading your comments and your bit about "by the time I got to be 30 finally grew up a bit and kept my job for a long, long time"

    I haven't grown and I think that's what i need. People who have grown kept jobs which they're unhappy in, but they bear with them anyway. Thing is i'm just not that kind of person. I don't want to live most of the short life being miserable because of the job. In my mind, if you're going to be miserable for the rest of or most of your life, then you might as well just kill yourself. I wonder why I'm this negative, and i guess its something i need to figure out in therapy. I know that the more i think about the negatives the more I will spiral into the abyss. In a way, that idea has kept me alive and hopeful and trying to be more positive with life. But deep down i feel i only have a one track mind-'What's the point of living if you're feeling miserable?'

    I know ideally, that I need to face the responsibilities of life, but quite frankly, unless i find something i love doing and am comfortable doing, then i much rather take the path with less obstacles...
     
  9. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    I told my mom today.. It didn't turn out too bad. She did call me stupid and lecture me a bit. But she did it in the tone of voice that wasn't angry or aggravating (which she usually does). I told her not to tell my older siblings as they are going to celebrate my birthday on monday, and i didn't want everyone to feel unhappy or uncomfortable about it. Thankfully, mum agreed and said I am right about that at least.

    I feel sad because her own work isn't going so well and she needs help with the billing... I'm going to try to be a little stronger only because she was honest with me. Its difficult though, especially when you are exhibiting depression. Especially when I feel if I weren't here, then she wouldn't need to waste the extra resources, right? But i will make an appt with the psychiatrist to see what I need.
     
  10. Screaminginsilence

    Screaminginsilence Well-Known Member

    Im in a bit of a shitty place at the mo so cant offer much advice other than - when one door closes, another opens

    So fingers crossed for you, and happy birthday *hugs* x
     
  11. lachrymose27

    lachrymose27 Well-Known Member

    Screaminginsilence: thank you, possibilities are giving me more of a reason to keep going. I hope you are dealing well with your problems. Take care.
     
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