Hi....just need to vent and maybe ask if this can describe anyone else. I am 62. My childhood had its ups and downs as I was the fat, chubby kid with the glasses and curly hair. My family wasn’t always nice to me. However, I recovered. Moved out, married a great guy, have 2 fabulous kids, a grandchild, a paid off house, money, was an award winning professional in my field,, etc. I was traumatized 3 years about 10 days before my son‘s wedding
This destroyed me and I have been struggling ever since. Psychiatrists, therapists, medications, etc. I also have an autoimmune disease that is disfiguring.
Bottom line...I was never mentally ill before this all began. Medications will not solve the self hate I have for myself. I am in intense therapy but nobody can make me like me but me. I am considering hospitalization at some point but of course my dr wants to try another med and more therapy before that happens. Realistically, what will hospitalization do? I feel doomed and if not for the love I have for my family I would be gone.
When you have known normalcy for the majority of your life I think this battle is much harder as I am not used to it. I did grow up with it though as my grandmother became mentally ill after witnessing her adult son die. I was not going to be like her but here I am.
Anyone else a late bloomer to mental illness? Just curious. Thank you kind people.
This destroyed me and I have been struggling ever since. Psychiatrists, therapists, medications, etc. I also have an autoimmune disease that is disfiguring.
Bottom line...I was never mentally ill before this all began. Medications will not solve the self hate I have for myself. I am in intense therapy but nobody can make me like me but me. I am considering hospitalization at some point but of course my dr wants to try another med and more therapy before that happens. Realistically, what will hospitalization do? I feel doomed and if not for the love I have for my family I would be gone.
When you have known normalcy for the majority of your life I think this battle is much harder as I am not used to it. I did grow up with it though as my grandmother became mentally ill after witnessing her adult son die. I was not going to be like her but here I am.
Anyone else a late bloomer to mental illness? Just curious. Thank you kind people.