Saw the shrink today, and was very honest with her. I am suprised I did not get sectioned. I get sick of being asked "what is it that keeps you going?" I said "what do you mean by that", she says "well you are still here". So I said "because I haven't found a method that I like yet". :sad: She asked if I had suicidal thoughts and I told her "several times a day". She hasn't put me on any medication. I also told her I hadn't eaten in 21 days, she started lecturing me, then she told me that she was starting to sound like my mother!!!:unsure: I am over 30!!! The whole time she was lecturing me about the perils of not eating I just had the biggest smile on my face, because I really don't care, she might as well have been talking to my hand. I am seeing her not because of an eating disorder but because of suicidal feelings caused by loss of my daughter and workplace stresses. She also mentioned that if she gave me some puzzles to do that I wouldn't be able to do them because I wouldn't have the concentration levels. I asked her if it was the ones where you put a square peg in a round hole, she said it was one of them. I love doing puzzles etc. I enjoy not eating, I see it as a challenge and I love seeing the weight coming off. I told her I actually feel better when I am not eating. I told her that I don't even feel hunger anymore, and I like not feeling hungry. I know this is not normal, but I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't smoke. Everyone has their vices. She asked me what I weighed and said she would like to see me with a few more kilos on. I think I will be wearing baggy clothes in next time, but she can see the weight loss in my face. I even told her that some days I count the number of floors on a building and told her about the car park next to where I work. She gave me a certificate for some more time off work. I am not working at the moment because have a sister in law dying of cancer, work was asking me to go on full duties and I had to report to the boss, then I had my supervisor at work yelling at me because I laughed while he was on the phone and handed him some paper work to check. That was the last straw. Anyone else been really honest with their shrink?