....but my fiancé to be walked out the door a week ago last Thursday and took all his things - he's living at a neighbors house with his things in storage. I have no idea why he left. I have bipolar disorder and have been mood unstable for some time - it was only a matter of time before some event threw me over the edge. So I overdosed <mod edit - methods>. I spent 3 days last week in ICU while they cleaned my system of <methods> and then a further 3 days in the psychiatric facility. I still want to die. I'm so lost, confused and bewildered by all of this. I don't know why he left. There was no warning, no hint.....nothing. He just left me. I've been cancelling all the wedding and honeymoon arrangements....well....trying, as best I can. But much of it I can't get my money back on...it's all a waste.....like my life. I'm just disposable....sooner or later, people just kick me to the curb. I don't see anything beyond tomorrow, except hopelessness and more misery. I'm so desperate and confused.