I was thinking about telling my parents that I need therapy. Just typing that freaks me out a little. I probably won't do it. I don't have any courage. Mostly, I just feel like an idiot. Like I am just willingly sitting here watching my pathetic life go by while everyone else is perfect and having a great time. Right now, I am in my college dorm. I thought that going to college would somehow magically change things. As if overnight I could become a friendly, kind person that everyone wants to be around. What a fool I was to think that! :sad: I haven't really made any friends except maybe one person. But its not like I see him everyday. He just comes in to visit my roommate anyway. I just happen to be there. I can't tell you why it is hard for me to make friends. I just get this panicky feeling whenever I am around people. I am so afraid to make a wrong move that most of the time I don't even bother the time. It is hard to explain but it is like I want to be around people but at the same time I don't. I don't really have the motivation to do anything including my homework. I just wish I would fall asleep and not wake up and every morning that I don't is a huge disappointment. So thanks for reading his sad post but I just felt like telling someone how I feel.