but i just want to type it somewhere first. wont be now anyway, ill end just going to sleep. got a mental health app again tommorow (twice a week..), and ill have to tell him, and the threat of sectioning will grow more. But one day soon i will. noone bother typing long replies of help,because the whole point of this thread is that i just wanted to type this out. Thanks for listening. oh and this isnt a depressing post, this is a post im making in a clear mind, so no "calm down!!!11oneone!!" posts please. thanks. Sorry if i seem a wanker.