I am always scared. I don't want to go to work. I don't want to do anything. I got so sad and scared yesterday when I heard about someone who actually committed suicide. No one will ever care for me. How do you tell someone you have been depressed, hospitalized, that you probably will become very sad for no reason at times? People just bolt. And then I am alone, and afraid. I am not feeling actively suicidal, but I am really hoping that I just fall asleep and never wake up. I am just frozen. I cannot focus on anything. I just want my life to be over.