I Win Again A confused mind A fragile soul Taking a leap of faith Moving forward. It’s a scary time New and different Exciting and terrifying Won’t you walk with me? To prevent more hurt I’ll hold your hand But not let you hold mine As that would be too risky. And if things seem to be okay Don’t believe me Because I’m scared Of this changed life. I’ll never be the same Or what I was I’m trying to understand myself And this new normal. So I’ll push and push And I'll shove you hard And I'll hide and run To ensure my safety. I don’t know The why’s or the reasons I wish I did But I do know that I'm so very sorry. I win, again— By losing.