I was seeing this guy for 3 weeks. The first guy ever to not abuse me. He's gorgeous, smart and we're into the same things. However, a few days ago I felt him distance himself from me. I called him today because of the amount of anxiety it was giving me. Today he said he just wanted to be friends because he has no romantic feelings for me. I feel as though love doesn't exist or at least the romantic love that the media likes to bombard us with. It doesn't exist I've never felt it and I feel like I will never feel it. I just want to die because I don't think I will ever find my future partner. All of my previous partners have been abusive except this one recent guy. I miss him, I wish he felt as strongly for me as I do him. I feel like there must be something significantly wrong with me. I've wanted a boyfriend for as long as I can remember since I was 4 and I'm 22. I have no worth, no value and it's like every guy knows it. And so I am embracing loneliness. Because I just have to.