I wish I could cut...

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Rukia, Nov 23, 2006.

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  1. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    ... but I'm to afraid of the pain.
    Ofc, it would be better not to punish myself at all, but I can't stop it.
    I'm sure that I would stop if I had scars that others could see, but the strangling doesn't leave any marks anymore. I hate it so much, but it feels so good.
    I think about it every second I'm not thinking about suicide, just waiting for the school to end so I could go home and get that good feeling. :sad:
    Maybe I should try the knife tonight....
     
  2. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    It's easy now to sayy you will stop self harm if it gets to a point where people can see your scars. likelihood is you'd have been drawn into self harm too far by then as it does get addictive. There are other ways to help combat the emotional pain, there's a sticky at the top of this forum, 'Techniques to avoid self harm in a crisis', with a lot of suggestions.
     
  3. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    maybe you're right... but i'm to afraid to let my friends know... they can't see the marks on my neck, but if they saw scars on my arms they would be so disappointed.. and i hate to disappoint those who mean much to me... i've gotten so addicted to the strangling, that i'm think it would be fatal one day...
     
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