Everything just hurts. My family hates me, the last guy I dated hates me, my real life friends treat me like an idiot, I don't know what I want to do with my life, I'm scared to do simple everyday tasks, and my online friends are tired from all my depressive talk. Everything is just one big mess. People keep telling me I need to be happy alone and that things will get better. It's all bullshit though. I just wish I had a way to end it all. A sure way. I don't want a failed attempt. That's the worst scenario I could ever think of. And to me, getting help is just getting used to being unhappy again. And I'm sick of that being the norm. Having to pull myself up again and have unhappiness become my normal way of feeling.