I am back into feeling extremely depressed again. I have no self esteem... I feel I am worthless. First of all... I'm a guy, early 20s. I honestly don't think I am ugly, but I am a far cry from any of the "hot" guys that girls fawn over. I am about 5'4 feet tall... 150lbs. I'm pretty skinny but I'm getting a gut because I never get any exercise and I eat too much. I eat until I'm full and then I eat more. I wish I had a girlfriend. I've never had one. Someone to just talk to, and share life with ... A reason to live. I dream of one day having children, but I don't know if it will ever happen. Women don't like short guys. I have been reading some online personals. Not to find a date, but just to see what women want in a guy. They want everything I am not. Every single one demands tall men, handsome men, confident men. I am none of these things. I need to raise my self esteem. Hell, I need ANY self esteem at all. I don't deserve this. No social skills, no self esteem. The only positive thing I can think of is that I can make people laugh, and I think I have a good personality (although you wouldn't think so after reading this :tongue: ) I am intelligent. I think I am a good person. Unfortunately, none of these things matter when you are like me. God sure dealt me a crappy hand. I sometimes feel like ending myself because I can't bear to think about my future of lonliness and depression. Oh god, what a horrible fate to look forward to.