I'm sure many people here will be offended by the title alone. How could someone wish they wanted to die? Well, i'll explain it to you. i did want to die..for so so long. I just wanted this all to end, to be over. And then i got pregnant, and went into labor early and my son died. And I couldn't feel that way anymore. I couldn't want to die when he never got the chance to live, it just didn't seem fair. Not me, not his mother. I could live for him. But now...I wish i wanted to. I've learned that sometimes getting over being suicidal isn't the greatest thing in the world...because you have all of the pain you had before, every nightmare, every flashback..and theres no end. There's no light at the end of the tunnel, no possible escape from it. You just stew in it and let it consume you...I wish..so so very much, that I wanted to die.