I Wish I Was Dead.... BUT

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by HappyAZaClaM, Sep 8, 2008.

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  1. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    I'm not......so there. I had a nice long juicy post
    about how much I was sickened and nauseated by all other
    slimeball human mutants.

    but it's a broken record. I think I'll just go sleep in the road at
    a bus stop. maybe the poor driver will not notice me and think
    he ran over a 12 pack that some idiot threw out their car window.

    goodnite all. with any luck, I will NOT see, talk to or hear from you
    tomorrow. the key word there is luck, or complete lack of it.

    not to mention lack of guts or nutsack or strength of resolve.

    oh no...I'll keep on living the same shitty miserable fucking
    life over and over day after mutherfucking day.

    hell, another 5, 6,8, 10 years tops? I can legitimately die of old
    age. that'll be the fucking day alright. fuck this world.
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  2. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    Move to Suicide section :)
  3. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    ok, prolly a good idea!
  4. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Don't you just hate it when life just seems to jump down your throat and
    leave you thinking WTF!!!

    Can I ask Clam, been drinking today?
    Only I often find booze makes me terribly melancholy.

    Or conversely it could just be the nightmare of looking forward and seeing what? the local old people's home?
    I hate being over 40 life has become a scarey place.
  5. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    >>>Can I ask Clam, been drinking today?<<<

    would that it twere, no. nary a drop :dry:

    just talking with other humans...and they suck. and I suck. we all suck.
    life sucks. I think the truly magic people are the ones who know life sucks
    and still get on with it.
  6. I think you make a valiant effort, and thereby qualify! :biggrin:

    *bestows honourary magic wand*
  7. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    thanks... more likely, it's gutlessness that keeps me trudging on in the wilderness of SHIT that is the human condition. but if you say valiant,
    I won't argue :dry:

    lmao!! you on here too. I wouldn't want to say something nasty to invalidate you when you're trying to be nice :)

    we're likely all a tad touchy. thanks for the post. how U doin?
    heard any good jokes? new ones I mean?
  8. Dave_N

    Dave_N Guest

    Funny that you should mention this. I'm actually thinking about trying out magic or black magic.
  9. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    Originally Posted by HappyAZaClaM
    just talking with other humans...and they suck. and I suck. we all suck. life sucks. I think the truly magic people are the ones who know life sucks and still get on with it.

    >>>Funny that you should mention this. I'm actually thinking about trying out magic or black magic<<<

    black magic? ok, I'll bite :)

    what's the punch line?
  10. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    I'm banned ..I doubt you well get this message. but so long!
    live long and prosper
  11. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    See the thread entitled ''HappyAZaClam - look here'' in the Letters to Management forum, at the top of the forum.
  12. Weird but neat...
    (Would have sent a PM - but it's now verboten according to you status)

    I was in the Psych ward three times last year - met a wonderful lady I call a "new friend", but kindred nevertheless and we've kept in touch. One of the best compliments I ever received from her (or anyone for that matter), was that even in my most depressed state - then and since - I was the funniest person she'd ever met.

    I think of you in the same way - newbie that you are on the forum. You're spectacularly weird as you are funny! Don't mean we have to be best buddies - now or ever - but I did mean what I said - granting you the "honourary magic wand*

    "So long as we're laughing, means we ain't dead!"


    ~ G

    ~ No new state-of-the-art jokes as of present - but there is a thread called "Joke and Funnies" in the Positive Feelings section. I have a feeling it'd be up yer alley....

    <edit> OMG - You managed a feat in such a short time that others only dare aspire to - and I DO mean DARE! Good on ya, Mate!
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  13. Ain't a goddamned thing in there sweetie. If it *was* there, it's been deleted consumed and absorbed by Admin - rightfully or not.
    Get with the program when you dispense suggestions - or at the least - be clear about who you're dispensing it to...

  14. ToHelp

    ToHelp Well-Known Member


    You may have read where I hit what I called, my own "late mid-life crisis" at 44.

    But.... see the thing is, that comes with the territory. If one would LIVE, he must inevitably age and eventually, yes, pass on.

    *I* say: Fuck it. (lol) Embrace that which is, and baby, you embrace that which is good, tight-tight-tight.

    If you still don't get what I am on about, just look about you. The world is full of happy-go-elderly people. Forty, schmorty--hell that ain't old. It's just not young.

    Here's another tool. Never forget the old attitude of gratitude.. What you focus on most is what tends to expand. No, this is not just "New Age" stuff, although there is much to be gained from that as well.

    Listen to me now. Thoughts are things.

    Just stay in "the positive" as much as you are able.

    You will be ok.

  15. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    it was to me. and only I could see it. I apologize for you inadvertantly
    getting caught up in my mess or messes, plural, as in "another fine
    one stanley" etc..

    it is not really ab's fault. it was a covert way to tell me I was not in
    fact banned, but restricted, for a time. temporarily. this is due to
    my inabilty to hold my temper.

    I 'feel' it is a double standard, but it is really not. whereas some posters
    might be 24 karat wankers, they say annoying things in annoying manners
    that are technically within the confines of acceptable behavior.

    mine is not. I come completely unglued to the point of becoming
    a raging snarling seething psychotic madman. which in fact, I am :)

    I don't know why other people cannot ignore me just the same as I
    am expected to ignore them. but I am pretty sure that all comes
    under the "nobody said life was fair, it aint, how U like-um so far?"

    well, me no like-um worth a tinkers damn. but I am NOT surprised or
    alarmed or even particularly outraged.

    anyways, it aint the mods or the admons fault. they or in this
    case ab secifically was trying to be nice and let me know what was
    what in the only way possible.

    PM's are temporarily disabled, so he could not send me a PM.

    eh?? big deal. so I'll go read a book. another week the weather
    will be nice here, or nicer than it is now...317F in the shade.
    expected to be down to the mid 130's by Christmas :)

    see ya in the funny papers!
  16. HappyAZaClaM

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    I was in a particularly foul mood earlier. I apologize for that.
    I didn't really address your entire post, mostly because it was not
    um...uh, labrynthian and lengthy enough :)

    that's an inside joke and a slam on a poster who was too lazy to
    address one of my uh...labrythian and lengthy posts :biggrin:

    not addressed to you at all. just being an opportunist!

    too lazy, or possibly the person who was reading the posts to him had to
    take a bio break or something politically correct and so on :dry:

    as for aging, it does happen to the best and the worst of us.
    40 was actually more unsettling for me than 50. so I empathize
    without having any useful help or feedback.eat drink and be merry?
    for tomorrow we'll be 70?

    you're ok :)

    no worries, try and look at it from the other end. would you or any of us
    or me or ANY of us ( I said that) like to go thru childhood and teenage
    disease again? of course we can't. but who the heck would want to?

    cheers! oh...as for booze, it makes everybody melancholy. it is
    a major depressant. but ..you know, a time and place for everything?
    drinking alone is a bugaboo. a few drinks with friends couldn't hurt!
    I think :unsure:
    just a few...that's the trick :wink:
  17. HappyAZaClaM

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  19. HappyAZaClaM

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    well? happy? have a good life abacus. don't forget to stick up for all the miserable bastards and persecute people like me who defend themselves.

    I'll put you in my will.
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