im tired of living. im sick and tired of life. i cant deal with all this. my ocd, depression, anxiety, adhd and self-harm are just too much for me to handle. i know ill never get out of this hole. im all fucking alone. all fucking alone. no one gives a fucking shit about me. no ones ever there for me. i have no one i have nothing. im unemployed and dont feel like i can work at any job. i dont want to work at all. i just want to die. just fucking die. i think so much about death and suicide. all i do is sleep and cry and feel like shit. and this fucking absolute loneliness never leaves me fucking alone. im a piece of shit and a total failure in every single fucking way. i know that when i decide to kill myself all die all alone. i just see no point in fucking staying here. i wish i was fucking dead and buried so bad.