Nothing is holding me back here. No friends no family no boyfriend. NO one! I have nobody. I feel like such a loser at life. I am a loser at life. I want to be dead. If there is a god he created me as a joke. I feel like nothing but a big fat fucking joke. I hate life. All life ever did was laugh at me. i hate when people laugh at me. Thats all anyone ever did was talk about me or laugh at me. But why?!!? Why am I so different? I have nobody to understand me. Tell me I am not alone. But I'd never wish this pain on anyone NOT even my worst enemy. But then again the only enemy I have is life itself. Heaven have mercy!:i'm sorry: for wasting your time. And I am sorry for wasting everyones precious time. I am just a waste...