Fellow suicidal peeps, are you ever really pissed off at your parents for even bringing you into the world? I really, really wish I had never been born. I hate myself, I hate what has happened to me, I hate the fact that I told my parents vague details of what happened. I was kidnapped, raped, and tortured by a known serial killer and my family has no idea and my parents asked me for a police report when I told them. I wanted to vomit. I hate life. It doesn't help that my mom has been an abusive alcoholic my entire life and my earliest memory of her is her cussing at me for ice cream and zipping me up in a suitcase. Motherfucker! Why does life shit so hard on some people and make them feel helpless in their most desparate hour?!!! I just want to kill myself but I haven't the balls to do so and I'm reaching out for that last grasp of hope. I feel no reason why I am here. I am a Christian and do believe in God and Jesus but will I go to hell for this? I hate to put my family through it but I'm sure they'd get over it as they did with u kidnap, rape, and torture. Fucking A I hate myself and everyone who lives in this. I hate this. I just don't want to be in misery.