I think I've had enough. I'm 46 years old and I've been battling depression since I was 8. I was eventually diagnosed as Bipolar but it took years (and to be honest, I did most of the diagnosing) I've fought and fought and fought. I've gone from being a 16 year old single mother living on one of the worst council estates in the UK to having 2 degrees, a good job and owning a four bedroom Victorian semi in one of the best parts of Manchester. I've got a marriage which has lasted over 20 years, 3 grown up daughters, a small group of very close and supportive friends and I have absolutely nothing to complain about. Yet the depression still comes along with brutal regularity and totally screws my life up yet again. I'm so tired of it happening. It's always going to happen, it's never going to go away and I don't want to live with it anymore. I'm so tired of it. If I had enough meds, I'd take the lot but the doctor has me on weekly prescriptions so I can't. I don't want to talk to anyone. I've spent most of my life talking to people. There's not a lot I don't know about the subject of depression and Bipolar Disorder. I'm sick of talking about it. I'm just so tired of the whole thing.