Does anybody have any advice for me? Once again I woke up this morning and my first thought was "I wish that I was dead". How can I carry on when it hits me in the face as soon as I wake up? I know that you have probably heard it all before but I don't feel that I can carry on anymore. I have nothing to live for and my only existence is PAIN. I hate myself and I hate life. I can never escape the pain of living. Nobody cares - and the people who are paid to care (ie the doctors etc) care even less. If the doctors don't care, why should anyone care? The world would be a better place without me, I'm sure. One less person to breathe the air and to use the resources that could be given to other people who deserve it more than I do. I have been told by so many doctors etc that they can't help me. Nobody is willing to put themselves out and to give me the treatment that I need to get better. There is no hope - that is why I wish that I was dead.