Some time ago, I became reckless and ended up doing many regretful things. I hated myself more because of that. But then, I did tried my best in changing and made an effort to fix everything. Yet, my mom kept reminding me of those mistakes, I usually would keep quiet and take it all in cause I'm used to it. But it still affects me, every now and then, I'd get aggressive and burst all my emotions. You'd think my family would understand my pain but they don't. She'd actually brush it off and scold me instead. She'll remind me of all my wrongdoings, saying that I shouldn't bring shame to our family and keeps pressuring me. I know talking back at her wouldn't do anything and instead make us fight even more. So, I always run away and say I have something to do. I'd keep all my emotions and force myself to be numb. And I'm so tired. I'm so tired of people brushing off my sadness, for not understanding my problems and I have no one to talk about this. I can't reach out to my friends cause I pretend that I'm strong and I feel I'll just be a burden to them. I think they won't understand me either and that'll just hurt me even more.