I wish you did not hurt - that this overwhelming pain was not a part of your life - that I could take it, hold it, keep it away from you. I wish that you were not sad - that you did not ache or cry - that your dreams were not haunted and your days shadowed. I wish that you could see yourself the way I see you - know yourself the way I know you; your strength and kindness and humour. I wish you understood your value, now different but never less than it once was. I wish I could do something more useful than love you.