I wish....

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by RumoursOfMyDemise, Oct 26, 2011.

  1. RumoursOfMyDemise

    RumoursOfMyDemise Well-Known Member

    Sorry for the upcoming rant, I don't really care if no one reads this, I just need to vent.

    I wish I didn't feel so shit every day
    I wish I didn't have to put on an act all the time
    I wish all my old friends hadn't left me
    I wish I didn't have social anxiety
    I wish I could just be like a normal person, even for just one day
    I wish I could talk to people
    I wish I could look people in the eyes without feeling physically sick
    I wish my family understood me
    I wish I could tell my mum about the suicidal thoughts and the self harm
    I wish I could tell my psychiatrist about the SH and July's OD attempt
    I wish people didn't treat me like a child or a mentally retarded person simply because I'm shy and anxious around people
    I wish I could keep friends
    I wish I could be happy
    I wish I didn't have Seasonal Affective Disorder, or whatever this shit is that makes Autumn even more unbearable for me than the rest of the year
    I wish I didn't have depression
    I wish I had a purpose in life
    I wish I hadn't already written myself off at 17
    I wish my dad wasn't such an arse
    I wish my dad had never hurt me
    I wish my dad loved me
    I wish my parents still loved each other
    I wish my neighbours weren't drugged up, drunken, violent arseholes
    I wish I had never been bullied
    I wish I had a healthy self-esteem
    I wish I wasn't overweight
    I wish highschool hadn't fucked me up so much
    I wish depression hadn't fucked me up so much
    I wish my family were more understanding
    I wish people were more understanding
    I wish society was more understanding
    I wish society wasn't so fucked up
    I wish I didn't feel trapped in my own life
    I wish I didn't feel a prisoner in my own life
    I wish I could control my own life
    I wish I didn't get the urge to SH all the time
    I wish I wasn't so incredibly fucking lonely all the time
    I wish I didn't think about suicide all the time
    I wish I could knock some sense into myself
    I wish I could get out of bed in the morning
    I wish I could make other people happy
    I wish I didn't have to lie to people so much
    I wish my psychiatrist helped me
    I wish people didn't make me feel even less in control of my own life
    I wish I was clever
    I wish I was funny
    I wish I was loved
    I wish I could see a point/meaning to life and survival in general
    I wish I didn't over think things so much
    I wish I could stop all the wrong in the world
    I wish other people didn't have to suffer so much
    I wish I belonged somewhere
    I wish I wasn't forever alone
    I wish I could fix my own problems
    I wish I could fix other people's problems
    I wish my life wasn't so meaningless and empty
    I wish I didn't fuck up everything I touch
    I wish I didn't have to wish for all this shit that is never gonna happen...
     
  2. ExtraSoap

    ExtraSoap Well-Known Member

    Many of those are things I often think about, and by that I mean all of them except for like 3. Just keep going as best you can, if you need any help or need to vent to someone don't hesitate to throw me a PM or add me on MSN or AIM.
     
  3. Bluey

    Bluey Active Member

    I wish I was not alone all the time.
    I wish my health was better then it was.
    I wish to walk with moor ease and with out a limp.
    I wish I was not defamed.
    I wish I had a loved one, someone to hug when I feel this bad.

    I wish for a lot of things that most ppl take for granted.

    I also wish I could add something moor constructive to this thread but I can only add what I wish for.
     
  4. Sardaukar

    Sardaukar Well-Known Member

    i wish that everyone here didnt have to see what disgusting excuse for a human being i am
    i wish i could reach inside myself and tear out my heart
    i wish my parents didnt have to go through so much shame
    i wish id told my sister i loved her
    i wish that i could take everyones pain, and let it destroy me
    i wish
     
  5. gamergirl

    gamergirl Well-Known Member

    i wish i was loved.
    i was i wasnt left.
    i wish i wasnt so broken.
    i wish i had a family to do things with.
    i wish my brother supported me and didnt put me down.
    i wish i could do everything.
    i wish i wasnt so insecure thinking everyones out to get me
    i wish i was emotionally stable
    i wish i was someone else.
     
  6. lostgirrrl21

    lostgirrrl21 New Member

    i wish i didn't feel worthless.
    i wish life would just get better instead of worse.
    i wish rock bottom was really rock bottom.
    i wish i didn't feel alone everyday of my life.
    i wish high school didn't change people.
    i wish friends didn't come and go in the blink of an eye.
    i wish someone would notice i'm hurting inside.
    i wish someone would ask me what's wrong and truly want to know.
    but most of all...
    i wish everything would just make sense.