I wonder alot of times what makes me feel this way or makes me want to die. I have suicidal thoughts so often now. Walking down the street or even in class they appear. It's like a haunting that never goes away. Last time I felt in this situation I told my doctor and he freaked out and ended up telling my mom. So i have lost all trust with him, but my therapist has been pretty good with me, but I just have a hard time talking about it with her. I do not know I feel lost and alone while these thoughts keep intensifying.