Everyday I feel like doing something drastic, but I always second guess myself and do nothing. I've only done mild self-harm like eating very unhealthily, occasionally hitting my head against a wall. I just don't want to live with consequences like brain/organ damage from an attempt if I do decide to live. At the same time, I feel like I have to try something so that people know how bad it is. I'm so calm most of the time that I don't seem 'crazy' or that I'm a threat to myself, so people think I have control. How can I tell friends or my counselor that I need more urgent help without hurting myself and potentially regretting it?