A year ago I was diagnosed with a vitamin B12 deficiency after a long general decline of my health and my mental state. Additional testing showed that I had lost the ability to absorb B12 from food and that loss is permanent. I endured a series of painful injections and painful blood draws until my levels tested normal and since then I have had to take oral supplements daily (because even if you can't absorb B12 from food if you take 1000% of the RDA daily then enough gets into your bloodstream to keep your stores up). However I lost the will to live a long time ago, and despite taking their drugs it hasn't gotten any better and I don't expect it ever will. The main thing holding me back was cowardice and the lack of any acceptable method. I stopped taking my supplements a few months ago, mainly out of sheer rebellion. I was just tired of it and angry, so I stopped. I haven't told my psych and she hasn't asked. Recently i was curious so i looked into it and found out that without treatment a B12 deficiency is always fatal. It will eventually cause heart failure. I have a legal right to refuse medical treatment, including b12 injections and oral supplements. Since I found that out I have been at absolute peace, knowing that I won't have to spend decades more on this hamster wheel. All I have to do is nothing. The only thing that concern me is that before I succumb to heart failure I may become senile. I am worried about having my right to make medical decisions for myself taken from me if that happens.