I've heard that people feeling suicidal that reach out for help do not really have the intention of suicide. Well honestly I'm not exactly sure what my intentions are. I don't have the heart to tell friends or family that I want to end my life. I couldn't bare seeing the look in their eyes. So here I am on this forum, having a glass of wine and staring at my way out. I thought my heart would be racing or I'd at least be a little bit anxious. However, I simply feel nothing. I've cried the rest of my tears today and not sure where to go from here. I've read the Bible and asked God to send a sign that this isn't the end. I don't know if He did or not because I'm not really looking. I'm not even sure if I'm making any sense right now.