have boyfriends! It's crossed my mind so many times now. I feel dark, empty, lonely, like no one cares about me. It's almost like I have no reason to be living right now. I'm tired of feeling like this, I'm tired of no one caring about me, I'm tired of wasting my time on things that's never going to happen. I can't get a girlfriend if I tried, all of my friends with happy and successful relationships make me so envious it depresses me even more that they're happy and I'm not. Anyone have anything they want to say, because I'm really starting to think about successfully committing suicide.