I once knew a woman I was trying to get to know who shared many of my traits and probably would have been a good companion had I had more time and stamina, but man, idealists can be so stupid some times. That was the real kicker. Besides that, she would have probably been pretty good. Partly because I need someone fiery and unstable; I'm too stable and cold. She was some kind of 'revolutionary' and would always post crap about violence and the eurozone. One time, I replied with a logical analysis about how Greece was partially at fault for the Eurozone crisis due to overspending, etc. but at the same time Germany was overstepping and being cruel, blah blah blah. It was promptly deleted with a lecture about how passionate she was about this issue. Then later, I got desperate as she proved elusive and had anxiety about calling about 4 times (backed out even after promising, I sat there awake for 36 hours with her oblivious, trying to keep the real serious shit a secret until later), felt I was going to be dead in two days, so I sent a message which got completely misinterpreted in the worst way possible. It was then that I beheld a true firecracker. The whole OMG I CAN NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS IM GONNA CUT OFF CONTACT FOREVER I DONT TRUST YOU AT ALL bullshit. I explained the miscommunication and said I understood how it could be taken that way about 10 times, but was continuously ignored. Also, there was some other tangent. I'm pretty cold and calculating, and I have figured out a way to make a pretty big impact on the social structure of society over time. This woman is a socialist. I explained to her, on this tangent, my plan (which included advancing 'enlightened' socialism) thru becoming extremely wealthy and subverting the system/bringing suffering very different people together so they could function high instead of being marginalized and committing suicide. She basically declared she would never accumulate wealth because she was a socialist. I said I was a fucking socialist too. She was baffled at that. How do you want to accumulate wealth yet can be a socialist? Well, see, capitalism is the system that works today. Socialism will not work without a shift in the public conscience amongst other things. Therefore, you must use the tools available (even if necessary evils, though I'm not entirely anti-capitalist) to bring about the change. What do you think, ranting about how much communism rocks on your blog, cheering that France got a socialist PM and supporting guerrillas in Sri Lanka + a bunch of protests is going to change anything and scare the capitalists away? NO, it won't. The combination of hard rationalism + very high compassion + revolutionary tendencies seems to be very rare.