What the Hell is my problem? I try so hard to help. Even if it's just a simple line or a few heart felt words. But the more I try, the more it seems, people turn on me. They came asking for the help, and I only tried to be there. But then when they find themselves down or hurt, they turn on me. Well it's a two sided blade my friends. It hurts me too. The unkind words, the silence. Telling me who or what I am. If you dont want my help that's fine but please dont use me. I've been a pawn for way too many years. And you know what? It still hurts!!!! Maybe I should take the advice of a member here and get a real life, and shit or get off the pot! But this is my life . I accept all the thoughts and urges. But I cant accept the hurt from the people I call friends!