i feel like I have nowhere else to say any of this. Just signed up and I don't even know if I'm doing this right, but I just gonna leave this here. People think of me as this great fun happy guy. And I like that. I'm glad I can make others feel good and happy and all the things I don't feel. But it's tiring. Trying to keep up the appearances of a normal human being. If people really knew how I felt, I'd have an Oscar by now. I feel like I can't keep it up though. I'm tired. I'm done. I don't want this anymore.