My head is swimming today. Thought I had pulled it to tegether . But I'm afraid . I have apt to talk to someone to night . But I can't stop thinking and crying . I just dont think it will help !! Seem my life is just not worth the time . This is the third day I have felt likes this . Idk if I can make it . It seem no one carries . Not even my boys . Maybe they r just busy with thier lives .