Hey,
I'm 18 years old, live in The Netherlands (so sorry for my english). idk what to do exactly here, but I hope it will be something good. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently. I've been depressed for a couple of years (like 4 years) now, but recently I have just hit a new low. Because my head is just filled with negativity and depressing thoughts, my school and social life have suffered a lot. And with that my depression got worse. I drank alcohol a lot, but I did stop doing this to feel better. But just because my head is so full with the feeling of suicide and depression, I just cant focus on school, I just can't keep my attention to it. I have made a list in my head with what I would like to give to my friends when I'm dead. I have chosen the way I want to die. And I have pretty much given up. I hate myself, I think I'm just a waste of space. And I just don't know how to deal with these thoughts and feelings. So if any of you can help me.
I'm 18 years old, live in The Netherlands (so sorry for my english). idk what to do exactly here, but I hope it will be something good. I've been having a lot of suicidal thoughts recently. I've been depressed for a couple of years (like 4 years) now, but recently I have just hit a new low. Because my head is just filled with negativity and depressing thoughts, my school and social life have suffered a lot. And with that my depression got worse. I drank alcohol a lot, but I did stop doing this to feel better. But just because my head is so full with the feeling of suicide and depression, I just cant focus on school, I just can't keep my attention to it. I have made a list in my head with what I would like to give to my friends when I'm dead. I have chosen the way I want to die. And I have pretty much given up. I hate myself, I think I'm just a waste of space. And I just don't know how to deal with these thoughts and feelings. So if any of you can help me.