I'm feeling so down recently, but I have no idea why. Seriously, I have no reason to be depressed, at all. I was out all day Saturday, I'm going to be out all day today, then Tuesday, then Thursday, then Friday, then Saturday, probably Sunday, too. With friends all the time. Why the fuck am I feeling so bad if I'm going to hang out with my best friends all week? I'm turning sixteen this week, I should be ecstatic, but I'm not, what the fuck? These are supposed to be the 'years of my life,' or whatever, but they aren't. I haven't cut in like..three weeks, maybe? And yet I feel the need to do it. I feel the need to cut my arm into pieces, and I hate that feeling. The feeling of needing to see myself bleed. Just when I was finally starting to feel better, I feel worse, and I have no idea why. I just don't know.