Thanks for your reply! Myself, I was terribly shy in school, throughout high school. In fact, I never had a date till I was 27. And, that was because we were friends and she ask me out. As far as getting out, that's understandable. But, it's not your fault. What you have now, is the power to change who you are. You don't have to answer to anybody, but you. Don't dwell on past experiences. That will bring you down. Start making goals for yourself. Get a calendar, Mark the days you have progresses. Start small, then challenge yourself. Don't worry about love. That will happen, when you least expect it.
Again, don't dwell on your negatives. Starting tomorrow, tell yourself you will change your destiny to the better. Depression feeds on negativity. The more negative you are, the more depressed you'll be. If you change your outlook, you see your health improve, people will start noticing you more.
Stick around, let us know how things are you going. Don't be afraid to ask questions. I'm new here myself but, I'm thankful to find a forum, such as this! This didn't exist for me, back in my high school years. You've found a good place!