This is my first post. Basically, I know that when I die it will be by suicide. I worry about making sure my kids have enough money, so I am in the process of increasing my life insurance. Of course insurance won't pay in the event of suicide so I am thinking it has to look like an accident. Such as cleaning the garage while running my car 'for the radio'. I have tried all kinds of antidepressants and anxiety meds without success, so I've given up. This won't be today, it's just that I can't tell anyone what is in my head and just needed to get it out.