I will no longer have to look in the mirror and see my ugly self
I will no longer feel like a failure
I will no longer try and figure why my brother and father no longer speak to me
I will no longer miss my 2 dogs
I will no longer cry over Rachel
I will no longer about being practically disabled and uemployed
I will no longer have to worry about homelessness
I will no longer be stuck in my room with no friends to hang out
I will no longer think i have nothing to look forward to
I will see my close friend and grandparents and aunty in heaven (or not)
I will no longer suffer unbearable panic attacks wherever i leave home
All the feeling of anger, sadness, fear, jealousy, resentment, hopelessness will disappear
Suffer all of these problems for another 50 years, or be at peace
Man i feel like such a loser begging for sympathy writing that, because many others have it worse
Anyway none of this matters, i will certainly die soon
Love you guys. You guys understand and tried your best to help me. This is not a note. I will definitely be alive for a while still
I will no longer feel like a failure
I will no longer try and figure why my brother and father no longer speak to me
I will no longer miss my 2 dogs
I will no longer cry over Rachel
I will no longer about being practically disabled and uemployed
I will no longer have to worry about homelessness
I will no longer be stuck in my room with no friends to hang out
I will no longer think i have nothing to look forward to
I will see my close friend and grandparents and aunty in heaven (or not)
I will no longer suffer unbearable panic attacks wherever i leave home
All the feeling of anger, sadness, fear, jealousy, resentment, hopelessness will disappear
Suffer all of these problems for another 50 years, or be at peace
Man i feel like such a loser begging for sympathy writing that, because many others have it worse
Anyway none of this matters, i will certainly die soon
Love you guys. You guys understand and tried your best to help me. This is not a note. I will definitely be alive for a while still