I have suffered form chronic pain since 1990 with no end in sight. Now I have vertigo and a brain injury. I'm just in too much pain mostly physically but there is a lot of mental pain. The only reason I haven't done it sooner is because I think God is cruel and evil and he will have something even worse in store for me. God is a horrible being. My condition is taking its toll on my family who always see me in pain. This is not some emotional thing or chemical depression. For me it's a practical solution. I keep looking for remedies for my back but God really screwed me good and I fear there is no way I can escape this torture whether I live or die. My wife doesn't want me to do it but I think she will be better off without me. God is so cruel the way he magnifies our pain. If when I leave this existence I will see if I can destroy God and maybe this horrid system of things will stop for the world and the humans he tortures. For the rest of you. Before you consider what I am thinking about make sure it is not just some fouled up brain chemistry that can be fixed or will straighten out on its own. I too have lost loves and it hurt bad but you get over it. I think in most cases there is real hope. In my case that hope would be medical science acting in a scientific manner and finding a cure for my pain and torment but God loves disease and the people who get rich exploiting it and for that I will try and kill God. Most things will get better but somethings don't. Make sure you know the difference before you take this step. For me this is a rational choice pain followed by more pain is a bad choice but like I said, God is evil and if I do this things may get worse. I see it as a roll of the dice. No matter what you do. HATE GOD! He deserves it and a whole lot more.