I was raised to believe in God. Because of how many times I've been fucked over in the last five years without deserving it as a direct result of attending some church events, Therefore, I don't think I can believe in God anymore. If He was real, he wouldn't have put me in contact with people that would cause such shit to happen to me. So the question arises, why kill myself? Why not go and xxxxx? If I don't go to jail and there is no God, then why not at least xxx of the people who have fucked me over? I dream of xxx them and I think I could xxxxwithout being caught. Fuck you and you and you and you. It doesn't mean I can't kill myself later. Thoughts?