if I drink I feel like everything is over!

Hey!!!! well, I partied last night until 6am and when I was with my friends all I wanted was disappear, kill myself, go to somewhere no one knew me. I am afraid because I felt so vulnerable. Now I feel like my life has no meaning since I was fired from the job of my dreams! All I want is to take a bunch of medicines and forget everything!!
I have put on weight and I look just horrible, I hate myself

 

Weight can be lost. Jobs can be found, okay maybe not as good as the last one, maybe better.
Stay away from alcohol tho its a depressant, so will heighten any depressed feelings you have.