Well I finally did it. I left my drug addicted fiancée today and I think it's the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I could use support, advice and/or people to talk to. Well, especially people to talk to....The last time I did this I was extremely suicidal and on the verge of ODing and I just hope I can keep my mind busy and it gets easier eventually cause right now I'm an emotional wreck. I was with this guy for 2 years. The 5mg of klonopin I took with a couple of margaritas and the couple people that have talked to me today have helped keep me from crying most of the time but I do keep breaking out every now and then. It hurts really, really badly. Also, for those who don't know I have borderline personality disorder so to someone like me it feels like a ton of fucking bricks hitting me in chest. And I just want support and help. I'm planning on asking to see my therapist tomorrow. And I'm going to pop like 3 ambiens I think to sleep... I hope I make it... I just don't know. It would help if I had any friends or my family was the least bit emotionally supportive but my only "friends" are my ex and someone I talk to from this forum. Other than that I'm completely alone and really scared.