I'm sitting deep, very deep, I lost everything but I try to stay positive although at times it's very very hard. I'm far from seeing the end of my misery but I made myself one promise, if I ever get out of this I will make it a personal task to help people in similar situations. I noticed in the latest months that nobody wants to hear my problems because these people have never been so deep. They just cannot understand how it is possible that someone is driven to the edge, that you see suicide as the only way out. I guess I was one of them before all these things happened to me. So I will keep on coming back to this forum to help other people if I get out of this... I guess we should all try to do that. There is no one better placed to help if he/she has the same experience.