I'm hollow and hurting, I would love to say one thing triggers or spurs me to tears, but it's the fact that I will be alone for the holidays. And forever. I am crying and need to stop crying as I'll soon run out of tissue. I hate feeling sadness is all I know. Hate the headache afterwards. I cry so much that my left eye swells closed. I cry cuz I am so powerless to change my situation. shit it all to hell. I've cried my whole life....my whole life is been boo hooing with all my family members. I just will just quietly go away. I cry cuz I miss my son. I miss my grandmother. I cry when I Od cuz then my pain will stop. Tears to stop. Then I can plan whats left.