if i knew how to let it out, I would do so...

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by TLA, Nov 19, 2006.

  1. TLA

    TLA Antiquitie's Friend

    I'm hollow and hurting, I would love to say one thing triggers or spurs me to tears, but it's the fact that I will be alone for the holidays. And forever.

    I am crying and need to stop crying as I'll soon run out of tissue.
    I hate feeling sadness is all I know.
    Hate the headache afterwards.
    I cry so much that my left eye swells closed.
    I cry cuz I am so powerless to change my situation.
    shit it all to hell.
    I've cried my whole life....my whole life is been boo hooing with all my family members. I just will just quietly go away.
    I cry cuz I miss my son. I miss my grandmother.
    I cry when I Od cuz then my pain will stop.
    Tears to stop.
    Then I can plan whats left.
  2. immure

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  3. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Why forever TLA, we never know what is round the corner.

    Know what you mean about the holidays tho...dreading Christmas
  4. TLA

    TLA Antiquitie's Friend

    Not dreading the holidays, I always loved the specialness that you have.
    Now, I don't have that joy or special feeling of being wanted.
    I only feel sadness that I am alone.

    I don't think there will be any "around the corner" for me.
    I don't see any future.