if i knew how to let it out, I would do so...

[TLA]

I'm hollow and hurting, I would love to say one thing triggers or spurs me to tears, but it's the fact that I will be alone for the holidays. And forever.

I am crying and need to stop crying as I'll soon run out of tissue.
I hate feeling sadness is all I know.
Hate the headache afterwards.
I cry so much that my left eye swells closed.
I cry cuz I am so powerless to change my situation.
shit it all to hell.
I've cried my whole life....my whole life is been boo hooing with all my family members. I just will just quietly go away.
I cry cuz I miss my son. I miss my grandmother.
I cry when I Od cuz then my pain will stop.
Tears to stop.
Then I can plan whats left.

 

[immure]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((tla)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

 

[Terry]

Why forever TLA, we never know what is round the corner.

Know what you mean about the holidays tho...dreading Christmas

 

[TLA]

Not dreading the holidays, I always loved the specialness that you have.
Now, I don't have that joy or special feeling of being wanted.
I only feel sadness that I am alone.

I don't think there will be any "around the corner" for me.
I don't see any future.