If nothing comes along I may do it.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by wants2die, Jul 11, 2007.

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  1. wants2die

    wants2die Well-Known Member

    Hi I'm new to the site and I have been reading some of the post people put and I can see how well I fit in here. I just turned 21 and since I was 7 or 8years old I have been contemplating suicide. My life has been up and down mostly down. My dad is a recovery alcoholic but when I was a kid he use to beat me and I couldn't sleep at night for fear he would come in and beat me. my mom takes a lot of pills and she told me they were to help her stomach acid problems but I think they were depression pills. no one in my family likes me i'm just one big joke to them. When I was just 4 years old my cousins who were 15 or 16 use to throw me out of the house and lock the doors and they use to tell me my parents found me in a grabage can. At night I had dreams that I died and no one cared. When I was 15 I attempted suicide, I took a belt wraped it around my head I put it tight as I could and I started to black out until my brother came in and saved me. I attend college now but have no idea what im doing here. I fear I may doing something drastic unless that one big thing in my life can change it and I hope it happens soon.
  2. SoHappyItHurts

    SoHappyItHurts Well-Known Member

    The vast majorities of universities and large colleges offer free psychological counseling to students, especially full-time students. It may, however, be more effective to see a therapist in private practice if you have insurance.

    Regarding your social situation, do you have friends you hang out with? Roommates? etc? Do you think being in a romantic relationship would help?
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  3. happy.arm

    happy.arm Member

    your brother saved you? do you feel that he cares, and that's why he saved you?
  4. Aegis2003

    Aegis2003 Active Member

    Hey man, you´ve really been through a lot.Pm me whenever u want to talk to somebody
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