Honestly, If I could get my hands on some sort of ammunition...I want to do it. I feel as though this is the easiest way for me to give up...I've thought about everything else but this seems to guarantee an easy way out. I know that sounds pitiful but I'm pitiful, I don't deserve pity from anyone however, I'm obviously week and can't even face life...I never have anything to look foward to the future...I'm tired of living life, waiting to die. We are born to wait to die, I don't want to suffer through the period of time until I get there anymore.