I have to have cosmetic surgery for the third time. I was born looking like a circus freak. Twice the operation to make me look normal has failed. If it goes wrong again I don't think there will be any room for further alteration, in which case I will likely end my life or toy with ending my life with half-assed suicide schemes until I'm accidentally successful (probably too cowardly to pull a trigger or anything surefire). If they fix it too far I will look like a mutant. I see a bad ending on its way... I am certain I will die.