I was out with some guys who i thought were my friends. I was playing a drinking game that i had know idea how to play so by the end of the game i was wasted. The two guys led me into a room and tried to convince me to have sex with them (NO), a blow job (NO), a hand job (NO), a quick tit flash (NO). Evertime they asked me to do something i said no, but these guys were my friends i shouldn't have even had to say no. They started saying all these disgusting things to me like i was a slut. I was supposed to spend they night but after they starting saying all those things to me i didn't think it was safe for me to fall asleep, so i snuck out when they weren't looking. I know this may not sound like a big deal, but to me it was. It hurt to trust people and think that they're your friends and have them treat you like a piece of trash and an easy lay. I realized that they didn't really care about me, they just wanted to use me. This wasn't the reason i tried to kill myself but it was the straw the broke the camels back After i snuck out, i went home and started crying. I hated myself, i couldn't believe that they had tricked me ino thinking that they were my friends. I went to the bathroom and saw the sleeping pills i have to take everyday for my insomnia. I have already planed that i was going to kill myself, it was just the when that i haven't figured out. I thought that that time was the perfect moment because i found that every aspect of the life was shit, besides no one would miss me, i had a twin sister (issuses from that) thats better than me al everything, my parents hated me because i can't be the daughter that they invisioned (issuses). I thought that they would be relieved cuz i was the expensive daughter (I had spent my summer in the hospital from almost dying from anorexia and see countless therapists). I was already drunk, so my death would be easy and i took them and waited to die. Before the sleeping pills killed me, all the alcohol i drank made me throw up everything in my stomach, including the pills. It seems weird to just end the story at that but right now i'm giving life another shot.