Which I could press, like turning off the tv. I would press it, click and I no longer exist. heights. <Mod Edit:*music*:Methods> I have no friends, entirely my own doing as I became depressed and slowly shut myself off from the world. Uni drop out, and now I have this persistent rash that's been bothering me, (literally I have a rash). I've concluded that I just hate life and life is probably better off without me, I've become increasingly paranoid of being killed, yet I don't want to live. I realise how psychotic all this rambling seems, and I've also come to realise what a cynical person I've become. I can't help but read this forum and judge people negatively. Anyway this is no place to be, just nice to vent into cyberspace. p.s Don't kill yourself.