If there was a word to use to decribe the feeling i'de use it. I'm feeling more like I want to be gone every day. I found out I can live quite easily in this world. But this isn't about me. It's about everyone else. Ever wanted to do it then stopped wanting to do it then lost something that made you want to stop then started again then realised that it didn't matter in the first place then realise that your very thougths about the whole sentence that your reading are void? I used to think like that. But now others might be doing and bad things happen. I need to go.