If there was a word

[smackh2o]

If there was a word to use to decribe the feeling i'de use it.
I'm feeling more like I want to be gone every day. I found out I can live quite easily in this world.
But this isn't about me. It's about everyone else.
Ever wanted to do it then stopped wanting to do it then lost something that made you want to stop then started again then realised that it didn't matter in the first place then realise that your very thougths about the whole sentence that your reading are void?
I used to think like that. But now others might be doing and bad things happen. I need to go.

 

[Insignificant]

would you be so kind as to elaborate on this here? please? thank you

 

[gentlelady]

Water please do what you can to hold on. You are a great person and, selfishly, I would hate to see you harm yourself. I haven't felt what you are but I think I have had similar feelings. You can move beyond this. Please take care and stay safe. :hug:

 

[Stranger1]

I don't have a clue what your talking about. But I am behind you with support in my heart. No one should go thru this mess called life all alone.

 

[smackh2o]

Don't know what I was writing sorry. Well, I do but I wouldnt be able to explain. I just needed to write it down quick. I'm feeling ok again now, until the next time...